Surprise!

January 2 we got the shock of a lifetime. I was one day late, so when Bob went to the grocery store for chips, and I asked him to also pick up a pregnancy test. -Just to rule the possibility of pregnancy out. It was late, late Friday night. I cleaned the bathroom as I was waiting for the results. Though I was sure what it would say. Much to my consternation, it said "Pregnant." I shook the stick and waited for the word "Not" to come on. Nope.

Bob of course was thrilled from moment one. It took me a couple of hours to come around to the idea. You see, Bob is deploying in early August, and I am due in early September. And we've both had Human Biology classes, so we know how this works. But in all these years we've NEVER gotten pregnant. The hundreds of tests I've taken (in fear and trepidation of trading in my great life for one of diapers and feedings) have ALWAYS been NEGATIVE.

I went to the doctor last week, and there was a heartbeat (150 bpm, absolutely perfectly where it should be). As soon as I saw the heart beating, I was inexplicably attached to the idea of not only having this baby, but also WANTING this baby. It burrowed into my heart in a single moment. I'm still freaked out and worried. But I'm hopeful. This, too, will be a great thing. Change is tough. Life changing things that happen when I'm alone is tough times a thousand, but I know it is doable. Our lives are great, and this baby is an extension and result of our commitment and love for each other.

Unexpected Twists, indeed. Watch out world: Baby Cornelius is joining your ranks.